My Thoughts Summed Up in a Poem
1st Poem
Difficult
living without reason
without goal
nothing
to fight for
yet grasping for anything
you can hold on to
not willing to give up
and hope
2nd Poem
Time flying
Growing old
Scared
Being abandoned
in this forsaken world
Becoming another outsider
of society
Dying alone in a small room
with just one window
to the outside world
left unwanted
desperate for company
3rd Poem
Let me sleep
escaping this reality
Let me dream
escaping the boredom of this life
Let me create
escaping to another world
following my own rules
being the one in control
shutting down
before dreading the moment
of waking up
4th Poem
Be cautious
for what is said
words
you cannot take back
feelings of disappointment
unwanted
regret unpleasant
relationships lost
friends becoming
strangers
5th Poem
Greed
consuming body and mind
Leaving
ideals and humanity behind
Another day
in this godforsaken war
hidden eyes
watching from afar
Hunting
like a hungry viper
Waiting
to set the world on fire
6th Poem
Grey skies
raining
blurred mind
motionless
limbs
numb
seeking
warmth
looking through the window
waiting
yearning
7th Poem
Depressing
observing the minds
knowing the truth
understanding the world
seeing the future
knowing what is awaiting us
questioning yourself
trying hard to satisfy
is it worth it?
Knowing the own desires
hidden beneath
waiting to be fulfilled
8th Poem
Being shut off
for knowing the world
Being shut up
for knowing the truth
speaking it out loud
Being ridiculed
by the ignorant
No need to try hard anymore
let this world fall apart
and the illusions shatter
9th Poem
Trusting
risking too much
strings cut
irreversible
never healing
analyzing
hidden thoughts
never telling
play along
10th Poem
Existing
amongst people
faceless
interaction
exhausting
words meaningless
likeable on the surface
truth
hidden beneath
wanting to shine through
11th Poem
Caught up
in the routine of life
Going along
without a care for the world
Functioning
without thinking
Working
without questioning
Human relations
used
for the own benefit
Justice
a matter of power and wealth
This is what we call
Society
12th Poem
Isolated
not belonging
distorted perceptions
hating
being looked down on
judged
for being different
yearning
for the same kind
13th Poem
The world
an open book
Jealousy and intrigue
wherever I look
Meaningless
to live on this ground
let me hide
and never be found
14th Poem
Look up
high into the sky
where you see the light
shining upon you
Never let go
of the dreams
you are reaching out to.
15th Poem
May you see the lights
during the deepest night
May you see the stars
healing your deepest scars
I will be thinking of you
I will be by your side
whenever you need me to
16th Poem
Rattling wind
flickering lights
in the distance
faces grimacing
voices
whispering
soulless words
shadows
lurking
in the night
waiting
for the light
to go out
for the madness
to begin
17th Poem
Days turning gray
getting cold
withering
another year gone
wind slicing
hands shaking
breath
visible
bones numb
counting the days
waiting
to see the colours
of the sky again
18th Poem
Human’s minds
difficult to comprehend
the own thoughts
a trail
to another world
the risk
of losing yourself
in the pit of imagination
everything else
a blur
reality
becoming strange
19th Poem
Depression
like a demon
devouring you
difficult
to escape
lack of understanding
not being able
to explain
not even trying
afraid of being
isolated and forgotten
20th Poem
Days monotone
sometimes dreaming
even listening
to the words
flowing without sense
everyone
passing by
without noticing
the turmoil
burning inside
21th Poem
On different grounds
under the sky
unfolding landscapes
foreign yet familiar
sun blinding
heat burning down
different language
ocean’s night
starry sky
song of wind and waves
salty skin
carefree time
locked memories
my treasure
22nd Poem
Untrustworthy eyes
corrupt minds
show no weakness
going through
these doors
sun burning skin
smell of dust and fuel
waiting
expecting
welcoming hands
yet no place to go
same yet different
bonds nonexistent
I am home, am I?
23rd Poem
Sometimes cold
can’t decide
being nice
people
becoming
dependent
too attached
seeing too much
in a word
in a phrase
feeling cornered
not interested
in that kind
being mean
being questioned
getting tired
not wanting
to explain
24th Poem
Another shot
it takes
for the world
to look up
for the people
to care
to fuel the
anger
already existing
waiting for the spark
to become
the raging
fire
25th Poem
Cannot sleep
With demons
beneath
The mind’s a mess
Wanting
to confess
Yet pretending
Every day’s inspiring
Convincing the mind
to leave the fears behind
All the same, they will return
Leaving any faith to burn
26th Poem
Feeling detached
No need
for emotions
Sometimes too much
Forced
interaction
Don’t talk anymore
Know
the silence
Deep in the core
Seeking
guidance
For an unknown world
Hoping
for a change
So many words
The own universe
completely deranged
Losing the ground
Trapped
in a void
Tied to the sounds
I tried to destroy